Today, I celebrate 6 years of recovery!!! š I decided to take a hike this morning to allow myself some time to reflect on where I was 6 years ago, and where I am today. I am so grateful for my sobriety, and for the friends and family who have walked this path beside me.... Continue Reading →
The early morning ramblings of a chronic worrier...itās exhausting! What exhausts me is when my āinner-meā starts comparing itself to your āouter-youā. Does that make sense? š¤£ Quarantine has been difficult. I miss human connection - eye contact, smiles and the vulnerability of speaking truthfully to someone face to face. I was talking with a... Continue Reading →
I havenāt written in awhile. Iām sorry for that. Life has been crazy and Iāve honestly just been in a funk for way too long. Itās Friday night, and 6 months ago I would have just left the Milwaukee womenās prison after having a meeting with the ladies there. I would have just shared my... Continue Reading →
I have to be honest guys, this isolation is starting to get to me. š³ I love to laugh and make jokes, and I truly believe laughter is the best medicine and itās been seeing me through this shit show so far, but sometimes I have a tendency to use humor as armor - to... Continue Reading →
My daughter turns 10 next week, and I seriously cannot believe it! How is it even possible that 10 years went by so quickly?!? š° This year Iāve seen my little girl begin to blossom into a strong, compassionate and independent young lady. As proud as this makes me feel as a mother, Iāve selfishly... Continue Reading →
We are leaving for vacation next, which should have me jumping for joy, but instead Iāve been sucked into a pretty massive tornado of self-loathing - a āself-shaming shit-stormā, if you will. š¤Ŗ You see, I could tell you all day long that I donāt care what anyone thinks of me, but that wouldnāt be... Continue Reading →
When I started on this recovery journey I thought the only part of me that needed to change was the part of me that craved alcohol like I craved oxygen. The longer I stay sober, the list of things I need to work on seems to be getting longer and longer each day. You see,... Continue Reading →
Iāve been hesitant to share this one. This one hurts...a lot. And although I would love to tell you that I donāt care what anyone else thinks of me, that wouldnāt be entirely true. Some days I care more than others, but I still fear judgment. I am human, after all. Since Iāve started sharing... Continue Reading →
Life gets busy! Lately, I've been extra busy! My October calendar was FULL! Each day seemed to be filled with appointments, commitments, parties, recovery events/meetings and family gatherings. I found myself feeling extremely overwhelmed! I kept wondering when I would ever actually get time to myself to just relax, or cleanup, or write or just...breath!... Continue Reading →
It is not lost on me just how lucky I am to be alive. Recovery takes effort. Itās hard work. Itās scary at first, and uncomfortable, and painful, and some days I just donāt want to do it at all. But I stay, because it works and it is 1,000% worth it. š
