Peeling Back the Layers

I’ve been hesitant to share this one. This one hurts...a lot. And although I would love to tell you that I don’t care what anyone else thinks of me, that wouldn’t be entirely true. Some days I care more than others, but I still fear judgment. I am human, after all. Since I’ve started sharing... Continue Reading →

Busy Brain

It’s getting busy in my brain again. I feel a storm coming on, but instead of hail it’s raining ping pong balls inside my head. This might sound ridiculous at first, but can you even imagine? My thoughts, my worries, they bounce around in there for days - ping...ping...ping - It’s a constant barrage of... Continue Reading →

I Believe in Miracles

Some days, I am just grateful I made it through. I can experience a range of emotions throughout the day - any one of which could be used as an excuse to drink - and yet somehow I choose not to. It’s a miracle, really. In early recovery, people would tell me that I was... Continue Reading →

An Inside Job

One of the most important things I've learned in recovery thus far: Throughout my life I have always been reaching for things outside of myself - hoping I would find something that would make me happy. If I could just get that job, the husband, the house, the cars, be prettier, be thinner...THEN I would... Continue Reading →

Grace and Dignity

There have been all of these moments in my life - tiny moments that don’t seem to mean much at the time - but when I stop to think about them, I am reminded how fortunate I am. Even after a painful week like the one I just had, I can still find something to... Continue Reading →

Feelings

“It can be exhausting - the inability to fix another human being, yet wishing with all of my heart that I could at the same time.” Vanessa Day

Learning How to Celebrate Me

I have some exciting news that I’ve been waiting patiently to share with you all! It’s official! I was promoted at work today! Or as my daughter would say - I leveled up! So I’m taking a moment to toot my own horn, because I’ve worked hard for this dammit! To be honest, I still... Continue Reading →

Still Standing

It’s tough when friends in recovery go back to their addictions. Sometimes it feels personal, although I know it has nothing to do with me. Other times, I feel helpless - hopeless even. It’s not easy seeing people you care about choose to walk an unhealthy path, sometimes it’s straight up heartbreaking. Lately, I’ve been... Continue Reading →

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