I have to be honest guys, this isolation is starting to get to me. š³ I love to laugh and make jokes, and I truly believe laughter is the best medicine and itās been seeing me through this shit show so far, but sometimes I have a tendency to use humor as armor - to... Continue Reading →
My daughter turns 10 next week, and I seriously cannot believe it! How is it even possible that 10 years went by so quickly?!? š° This year Iāve seen my little girl begin to blossom into a strong, compassionate and independent young lady. As proud as this makes me feel as a mother, Iāve selfishly... Continue Reading →
We are leaving for vacation next, which should have me jumping for joy, but instead Iāve been sucked into a pretty massive tornado of self-loathing - a āself-shaming shit-stormā, if you will. š¤Ŗ You see, I could tell you all day long that I donāt care what anyone thinks of me, but that wouldnāt be... Continue Reading →
When I started on this recovery journey I thought the only part of me that needed to change was the part of me that craved alcohol like I craved oxygen. The longer I stay sober, the list of things I need to work on seems to be getting longer and longer each day. You see,... Continue Reading →
Iāve been hesitant to share this one. This one hurts...a lot. And although I would love to tell you that I donāt care what anyone else thinks of me, that wouldnāt be entirely true. Some days I care more than others, but I still fear judgment. I am human, after all. Since Iāve started sharing... Continue Reading →
Life gets busy! Lately, I've been extra busy! My October calendar was FULL! Each day seemed to be filled with appointments, commitments, parties, recovery events/meetings and family gatherings. I found myself feeling extremely overwhelmed! I kept wondering when I would ever actually get time to myself to just relax, or cleanup, or write or just...breath!... Continue Reading →
It is not lost on me just how lucky I am to be alive. Recovery takes effort. Itās hard work. Itās scary at first, and uncomfortable, and painful, and some days I just donāt want to do it at all. But I stay, because it works and it is 1,000% worth it. š
Itās getting busy in my brain again. I feel a storm coming on, but instead of hail itās raining ping pong balls inside my head. This might sound ridiculous at first, but can you even imagine? My thoughts, my worries, they bounce around in there for days - ping...ping...ping - Itās a constant barrage of... Continue Reading →
Iāve been feeling like I have writerās block lately, which is silly because I am not even sure Iāve been putting much effort into writing at all. Iāve been busy and tired and full of excuses. And quite frankly, all this frigginā self-reflection can be physically and mentally exhausting at times. Other writers have told... Continue Reading →
This was a tough one to stumble upon... I was recently looking back at some of my journal entries from the end of my active addiction. I would sometimes write during my moments of clarity. When I found this particular entry, it brought tears to my eyes. The entry was written just 7 months shy... Continue Reading →
