I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how this pandemic would have impacted my life if I were still drinking. I’ve ran a thousand different scenarios through my head and each one leads to the same result - I would not have survived this. Isolation is dangerous for those who suffer with substance abuse disorders.... Continue Reading →
Today, I celebrate 6 years of recovery!!! 💝 I decided to take a hike this morning to allow myself some time to reflect on where I was 6 years ago, and where I am today. I am so grateful for my sobriety, and for the friends and family who have walked this path beside me.... Continue Reading →
The early morning ramblings of a chronic worrier...it’s exhausting! What exhausts me is when my “inner-me” starts comparing itself to your “outer-you”. Does that make sense? 🤣 Quarantine has been difficult. I miss human connection - eye contact, smiles and the vulnerability of speaking truthfully to someone face to face. I was talking with a... Continue Reading →
I have to be honest guys, this isolation is starting to get to me. 😳 I love to laugh and make jokes, and I truly believe laughter is the best medicine and it’s been seeing me through this shit show so far, but sometimes I have a tendency to use humor as armor - to... Continue Reading →
My daughter turns 10 next week, and I seriously cannot believe it! How is it even possible that 10 years went by so quickly?!? 😰 This year I’ve seen my little girl begin to blossom into a strong, compassionate and independent young lady. As proud as this makes me feel as a mother, I’ve selfishly... Continue Reading →
We are leaving for vacation next, which should have me jumping for joy, but instead I’ve been sucked into a pretty massive tornado of self-loathing - a “self-shaming shit-storm”, if you will. 🤪 You see, I could tell you all day long that I don’t care what anyone thinks of me, but that wouldn’t be... Continue Reading →
When I started on this recovery journey I thought the only part of me that needed to change was the part of me that craved alcohol like I craved oxygen. The longer I stay sober, the list of things I need to work on seems to be getting longer and longer each day. You see,... Continue Reading →
I’ve been hesitant to share this one. This one hurts...a lot. And although I would love to tell you that I don’t care what anyone else thinks of me, that wouldn’t be entirely true. Some days I care more than others, but I still fear judgment. I am human, after all. Since I’ve started sharing... Continue Reading →
Life gets busy! Lately, I've been extra busy! My October calendar was FULL! Each day seemed to be filled with appointments, commitments, parties, recovery events/meetings and family gatherings. I found myself feeling extremely overwhelmed! I kept wondering when I would ever actually get time to myself to just relax, or cleanup, or write or just...breath!... Continue Reading →
It is not lost on me just how lucky I am to be alive. Recovery takes effort. It’s hard work. It’s scary at first, and uncomfortable, and painful, and some days I just don’t want to do it at all. But I stay, because it works and it is 1,000% worth it. 💜
