Reflecting on what life was like in active addiction, and thanking God I don’t live there anymore. 6:45am… She wakes in the morning, and immediately feels the pain of her head against the pillow. She feels embarrassed, but she doesn’t know why. This is not unusual. She often feels ashamed before she even remembers what happened the…… Continue reading The Lies She Wanted to Hear
People have told me I am brave for sharing my story publicly. Women have reached out to me, men too, and praised me for my strength and confidence. They tell me I am courageous. And every time I hear and/or read these words, I can feel the heat rising to my face, and my cheeks…… Continue reading We Can Do Better!
Mommy Guilt! Ugggh! I could probably write an entire book on this topic alone. Let me just start by saying, mommy guilt is the worst! There’s hardly anything that compares to the amount of pressure mothers put on themselves every single day. Most moms will admit to having experienced some form of guilt at one…… Continue reading Mommy Guilt
I used to spend my Friday nights at parties and nightclubs. I would spend hours getting all dressed up, putting my makeup on and curling my hair. I craved the excitement of finally letting loose (i.e. drinking WAY too much) just as much as I craved attention, because I thought attention meant popularity, beauty meant power and the attraction of…… Continue reading Dear Vanessa
When I finally found recovery, I was consumed with self-pity. I lived in a constant state of “woe is me” and was downright convinced there was not a single individual on this earth who could understand what I was going through, or what I was thinking and feeling. My self-centeredness, which I would come to find…… Continue reading Why Not Me?
Today, I celebrate 3 years living in recovery! There was a time, not too long ago, that I didn’t think I would survive another 3 years, so this milestone is an incredible accomplishment for a once hopeless addict like myself. I am often asked if I am worried about what people will think of me for openly admitting to being…… Continue reading Before You Judge Me
There was a comment under an article I read that hit me hard: “We shouldn’t have to help fund the drug problem! Addiction is not a disease, it is a choice! We should just allow natural selection to take it’s course.” Normally, I brush off offensive statements about addiction and recovery. I even defend those people…… Continue reading When Words are Weapons