Dear Vanessa

I used to spend my Friday nights at parties and nightclubs. I would spend hours getting all dressed up, putting my makeup on and curling my hair. I craved the excitement of finally letting loose (i.e. drinking WAY too much) just as much as I craved attention, because I thought attention meant popularity, beauty meant power and the attraction of... Continue Reading →

Why Not Me?

When I finally found recovery, I was consumed with self-pity. I lived in a constant state of “woe is me” and was downright convinced there was not a single individual on this earth who could understand what I was going through, or what I was thinking and feeling. My self-centeredness, which I would come to find... Continue Reading →

Before You Judge Me

Today, I celebrate 3 years living in recovery! There was a time, not too long ago, that I didn't think I would survive another 3 years, so this milestone is an incredible accomplishment for a once hopeless addict like myself.  I am often asked if I am worried about what people will think of me for openly admitting to being... Continue Reading →

When Words are Weapons

There was a comment under an article I read that hit me hard: “We shouldn’t have to help fund the drug problem! Addiction is not a disease, it is a choice! We should just allow natural selection to take it's course.” Normally, I brush off offensive statements about addiction and recovery. I even defend those people... Continue Reading →

Dear Addiction, This is Goodbye

Dear Addiction, I am writing you today to tell you goodbye. I have built a new life, one much different than I have ever known before. A life that brings me joy, genuine friendship and love; a life I don't need to escape from. This is the end. I know what you are thinking. That by writing... Continue Reading →

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