I have met so many women, with so much potential and so much talent, who struggle with addiction in a way most people in society will never understand. When these women are healthy, they are beautiful and charming and so incredibly intelligent. When they are in the grip of their addiction, they are disheveled, manipulative and some of the most…… Continue reading I Wanted to Save a Life – So I Started With My Own
I used to spend my Friday nights at parties and nightclubs. I would spend hours getting all dressed up, putting my makeup on and curling my hair. I craved the excitement of finally letting loose (i.e. drinking WAY too much) just as much as I craved attention, because I thought attention meant popularity, beauty meant power and the attraction of…… Continue reading Dear Vanessa
When I finally found recovery, I was consumed with self-pity. I lived in a constant state of “woe is me” and was downright convinced there was not a single individual on this earth who could understand what I was going through, or what I was thinking and feeling. My self-centeredness, which I would come to find…… Continue reading Why Not Me?
Today, I celebrate 3 years living in recovery! There was a time, not too long ago, that I didn’t think I would survive another 3 years, so this milestone is an incredible accomplishment for a once hopeless addict like myself. I am often asked if I am worried about what people will think of me for openly admitting to being…… Continue reading Before You Judge Me
There was a comment under an article I read that hit me hard: “We shouldn’t have to help fund the drug problem! Addiction is not a disease, it is a choice! We should just allow natural selection to take it’s course.” Normally, I brush off offensive statements about addiction and recovery. I even defend those people…… Continue reading When Words are Weapons
Dear Addiction, I am writing you today to tell you goodbye. I have built a new life, one much different than I have ever known before. A life that brings me joy, genuine friendship and love; a life I don’t need to escape from. What I am trying to say is this…our relationship has run it’s course.…… Continue reading Dear Addiction, This is Goodbye
“Haven’t you had enough yet?” “Aren’t you sick and tired of being sick and tired?” I can’t even tell you how many times I heard those questions while I was in active addiction. Everyone in my life who cared about me had at one point pleaded with me to just stop; my mother, husband, friends,…… Continue reading Active Addiction – Have You Had Enough?