On October 16th, I celebrated 4 years living in recovery!
I experienced a wide range of emotions leading up to that date, but on the morning of my anniversary I woke up with tears in my eyes because I felt so incredibly blessed. It’s still hard to believe I am able to live this life today. I am filled with gratitude.
I remember exactly where I was on this day 4 years ago. Sometimes it feels as if it happened yesterday, and sometimes it feels so distant – like a bad dream that’s lingered for years.
When I started this journey, I didn’t believe I was capable of long-term recovery. I had tried and failed for many years. I was defeated – physically, mentally, spiritually. My health was deteriorating and I was convinced I wouldn’t live much longer. At that point, I had grown so indifferent to life and death that I honestly didn’t care.
I truly believe a Power greater than myself placed certain people in my life to help me find my will to live. At 4 years, I can honestly tell you that I have NEVER had to do this alone. Countless people have helped me, and continue to help me, along the way. Day by day, through patience and kindness, they have taught me how to live, love and forgive.
So I want to say thank you for all of the support I have received since I initially disclosed my struggle with addiction. and for the overwhelming amount of support I have continued to receive throughout my journey.
I know I’ve still got a long journey ahead, but I have faith in myself today. I believe I can, and I’ve learned that if I believe I can – I will.
To those who suffer in silence – Do not EVER give up on yourself. There is ALWAYS hope! Recovery is possible! I am living proof! 💜